I wish..

"you don't know what it's like, to be like me.."

Today..

I wish I was smart enough, then this money matter would came to an end.

Sorry for making you disappointed mom, dad. I'm truly sorry.
I keep asking what i've done in my 20 years of life..
If only I was able to do that, maybe we could life the better way.. I will improve my ability, the i'll keep on searching that kind of opportunities. I hope I don't lost my spirit in the end.
I really hate the way I am now.