Calculus Cup :D

woaaaah.. actually, i have some thoughts in my mind that i want to post. but i don't know why, when i face this computer, i just feel lazy suddenly -__- but, these days i had some extraordinary day! i have to finish this post today!!


I'VE DETERMINED!

my new motto:
EVERYDAY IS A NEW ADVENTURE!

i already knew that it's a well-known motto. but i really feel like doing that! finding my new experience everyday.
okay, i will start to tell you two events that happened these days:
(for this post, i will tell you about the first event : Calculus Cup)

1. Calculus Cup

Calculus Cup is an event that my major held and it's an open cup.. for the university in Java and Bali can join. it's all about calculus. a kind of math competition. aaaa i really want to give this a try! i try to persuade my friends to join in a team with me (because it needs 3 person for each team). but i got nothing -_- almost all of them didn't want to join with me.. :( they're all afraid before we haven't prepared anything for it yet. okay.. i thought that i should just give it up then..

some day later, my seniors invited me to join in their team.. WAH! i just said OF COURSE I WANT TO in no time! hahaha i was really happy.. last year i couldn't join this cup because i knew nothing about calculus that time.. but now, after passed my first year in college, ya i know a little more about this kind of thing :D i made a promise to myself, that i'll put my best effort to this.. (of course, because i'm the only one junior in this team, i felt so nervous that time..)

Just call them ka A & ka Z. ('ka' is an anonym for 'kakak' which means 'older brother/sister')

i've seen them in campus. i knew them.. i had a little chat with ka Z in campus a few times, but with ka A, we've never talk before. i thought

"wah, i don't know how i supposed to do when the day come. how i supposed to getting along with them. i wonder if i'll be some help for them."

ya, my nervous was getting higher and higher, so i just feel like studying more and more to distract myself.

the D-day:

we decided to wear 'batik' today!

do you know about 'batik'?

it's one of typical indonesian clothes, just take a look at this: (i got these picture from google.co.id)

see? it's awesome right? :D

i'm glad that when i was arrived at campus, i got a warm welcome from ka A & ka Z. my nervous just got lost to nowhere that time. okay i'm ready! *pray for me*

Stage I:

the number of team that join this cup is 31 teams.

it's all about checking 50 questions whether it's true or false in a half-hour. fortunately, the paper test has 3 page. we decided to divide it, so each person will solve a full page.. Alhamdulillaah, what i've learnt was in my paper.. we felt quite able to solve this, we have a high hope that we'll pass this stage. optimist!

and Alhamdulillaah, we really made it! we pass into Stage II!! :D (which just 18 teams with the highest score could join)

Stage II:

it's about solving a riddle first in order to know the real question we have to solve.. it happened in a open-field and at noon. can you imagine it? it was so hot! maybe it could be another part of the test itself..

we got busy with guessing what this riddle wants, or what the answer of this riddle.. ya that kind of thoughts. i couldn't tell you what's more about this stage, but it obviously a mixed of guess-solve-panic-sweating. but it left us some impression! ka A & ka Z said that

ya.. it's alright if we couldn't make it to Stage III (the last stage), we've already done our best..

but i don't know why, i just don't feel like giving up that time.. i thought that maybe the other teams also facing the hardship like us. please, just wait till they announce the 6 teams that could enter the stage III!!

And we...

REALLY MADE IT!! woaaaah! Alhamdulillah! Subhanallah! it's really happened! :')

Stage III:
flashback:
well.. during the break when we were waiting for the announcement, i don't know why i just like sitting in the seats that actually provide for that 6 teams. the other people just asked me,
"wow you're really optimist that your team will be sat there ya" haha :D
i just could say aamiin :)
so i was extremely happy that we really able to sit there then! IT WAS REAL AMAZING!!
i don't know what to say but ya.. it was a real new experience for me. for being in that atmosphere, i was grateful.. we couldn't make it to the best 3, but i thought i was the happiest person back then :D
*maybe i went overboard but it's true*
i got new spirit, i'll study more, practice more, so i'll be able to make it next year! and i fell in love more with maths ;) do you believe it? just say so~ :D

some little story about that so-called parent's fondness :)

rasa kasih sayang orang tua terhadap kita benar2 tak terbatas. kalimat ini ga menggunakan majas hiperbola atau apa, tapi ini kenyataan.. bahkan kasih sayang itu benar2 dpt dirasakan sehari-hari.. kemarin, ada dialog yg terjadi antara saya dan mama yg membuat saya... wah... :') sbnrnya pasti ada tak terhingga peristiwa dlm hidup kita ttg kasih sayang ortu kita.. tp cm mau share aja nih bbrp cerita :)

(saya dipanggil 'mba' krn saya anak pertama)


*lagi belajar kalkulus*
*muka bete krn ada soal yg ga nemu jwbnnya.*

mama : "kenapa mba?"
anti    : "ada soal ga ngerti nih ma.."
mama : "yah mama ga ngerti itu..." *muka sedih*
saya  : *tersenyum kecil*

hihihi.. mungkin saya terlalu perasa.. tp ini bikin saya terharu :') bgmn mama pengeen membantu anaknya yg sdg kesusahan.. hahaha :)


ada lagi kalimat dr papa,
"udah mba anti fokus kuliah aja, gausah mikirin uang dll, nanti papa yg usahain. pokoknya belajar yg serius."

pdhl aku tau papa lg agak kesusahan tokonya.. smg lancar usaha papa..


dan salah satu contoh kecil lainnya dari tante dani: (percakapan td mlm)

*kriing* (ringtone hp ceritanya)
"assalamu'alaikum, mba anti.. lg sibuk nggaa?"
"wa'alaikumsalam.. ngga kok tante.. kenapaa? sofi, ryan, ada pr yaa?"
"iya nih mba anti, ga lagi ngajar kan? ada yg bingung nih.."
"iya, ngga kok tante... hehe"

*ngomongin pr anaknya*

"makasih ya mba anti, nanti kl ada yg susah lagi tante tlp lagi ya..
tante udah lama ga sekolah sih*. jadi udah lupa.. hehe pelajaran kelas VI SD kok susah bgt sih mba anti."

*maksudnya, tante dani kan sudah kerja.. jd sdh lama ga sekolah..

kira2 begitu isi percakapannya..
di sela-sela telp ini, terdengar suara anak2nya menyauti.. lucu banget iniiii, terlihat besarnya usaha orangtuanya jd ikutan bljr utk bisa bantuin anaknya... :')

lebay ga sih saya nanggepinnya? lebay jg gpp.. yg jelas saya seneng bisa merasa bahagia krn hal2 kecil seperti ini :)

showing sincerity is a difficult thing to do

i just realize this..
when someone say that they're sorry, they apologize,

it's easier for me to say "i'm alright" when i'm not..

......


why?

because, when i try to tell someone that i'm really alright, it's hard for me to show my sincerity.. i'm not someone who is good at expressing my feeling.. sometimes i just make the condition awkward..

oh.. i keep seeing the worries in their eyes.. i don't know what to act, what to say to make them believe me that i'm really alright.. i'm not feeling annoyed or etc.. and usually, they keep saying that they're very sorry towards me.. i bet there're so much people that have this kind of hardship too.. showing sincerity..

kebetulan? mungkin.

pikiran saya hr ini lg kacaaau bgt.. jd pgn nulis cerita2 yg sempet lewat di benak deh di blog ini. buat ngalihin pikiran.. sama nerusin postingan2 ngegantung sblmnya :D


Seminggu yang lalu, nambah lagi 1 "kebetulan" itu.. dalam satu mata kuliah, diadakan pembagian kelompok dimana caranya adl diundi mengambil nmr. dan dari pilihan nmr 1-10, saya dpt nmr?

10

oke. "kebetulan" kali yaa dpt nmr terakhir.

jd inget salah satu cerita wkt zaman SMP..

hm.. saat itu masih awal2 masuk SMP sih, jd disuruh cerita ttg diri sendiri gitu. gurunya nunjuk 1 anak utk maju pertama kali, trs selanjutnya anak itu nunjuk org yg kebagian disuru cerita ttg dirinya selanjutnya.
dari 40 anak, saya maju keeee?
.

40

okee "kebetulan" lagi kok. bukan brrti saya ga punya tmn di awal2 SMP ya jd gaada yg nunjuk -_- lupa jg gmn persisnya yg jelas saya dpt nmr terakhir bgt....... dan cerita saya pun jd udah ga didengerin kyny krn ud pd sibuk sendiri.

hmm... sebenernya ga selalu terakhir sih, mungkin krn kejadian dpt undian nmr bontot itu lebih mendominasi dlm hidup saya, jdnya itu yg lebih diinget. pernah jg kok dpt nmr 18 dr 40 pas urutan presentasi :D tp pernah jg dpt nmr 14 dari 15 -___- trs jg pas saya dan tmn2 saya ngocok nama, nama saya keluar terakhir -_- gitu2 deeh sempet bbrp kali..

ya.... pd akhirnya, semuanya ini cuma "kebetulan" kok. kebetulan aja tangannya ngambil kertas undian yg itu, yg nmr bontot2 itu, coba kl tangannya geser sedikit, pasti ga keambil nmr yg itu, yakan? haha.. hidup gaada yg tau kok :) ini cuman salah satu cerita keciiil dr hidup saya aja :D

ttp semangat semuanya!!

some story about my students :')

mau sharing2 aja sih, cuman ada cerita ttg bbrp murid yg ga pengen lupain. boleh? boleh laaah~ :p

*kriiing* (ringtone hape ceritanya)

siapa nih? nmr tlp rumah, tp ga dikenal...

"assalamu'alaikum..?"

"mba anti, mba anti, ini aku bella! masih inget ga mba anti??"

(nada seriang ini siapa yang bisa lupa.........)

"hahaha ingetlah beeell.."

"iya nih mba anti, aku mau les lagi.."

"emang lagi belajar apaa?"

"itu loh mba anti, pelajaran mtk SMA yg susah itu mba anti."

"eh? apaa? pangkat akar gitu2 ya?"

(bella kls x SMA dan ini msh awal semester)

(trs akhirnya ngmgin kapan bisa les.. walau sbnrnya kyny udah ga sanggup nambah murid lagi, tapi mendengar suara seriang ini siapa yg bisa menolaknya?)

somehow, akhirnya aku tau kl yg dia maksud adalah logaritma.. ahahaha lucu dehh..

jd pgn flashback deh..

murid privat pertama saya adalah T & G bersaudara haha (inisial aja ya mgkn). ini bener2 pas awal2 saya masuk kuliah. bahkan saya msh inget wkt itu bulan ramadhan, pulang sore abis persiapan MPA (semacam orientasi kampus) trs ngajar mereka. T jadwalnya senin & rabu, G selasa & kamis.

kok tau2 dpt tawaran privat?? kan baru lulus SMA..

ky di sebuah post sblmnya, saya mikir, wah keren bgt, siapa saya ditawarin privat?? saya bisa apa? ragu2 jg sih... tp akhirnya saya mikir,

T kls xii -> mau UAN

G kls x -> mau penjurusan IPA / IPS

wah masa2 genting jg sih.. yaudah terima aja, niatin aja ngebantu sampe mereka dpt guru privat yg bener.

<-ga pernah nganggep dirinya guru privat

kebetulan rumah mereka ga jauh dr rumah saya.. jdnya proses privat ini berlangsung sekitar bbrp bulan sampai akhirnya mereka pindah rumah.. rumah yg baru ini cukup jauh dr rumah saya.. terputuslah privat kita utk bbrp wkt..

tak lama kemudian, bude nelpon, blg T mau les lg.. akhirnya inisiatif kita belajar di rumah neneknya T (nah kl ini ga jauh dr rmh saya..)

wah ini jg part mengharukan buat saya.. siapa saya dia pulang sekolah mampir dulu ke rumah neneknya utk bljr sm saya? tp semangat belajarnya itu loh...... subhanallah :') dan si G jg begitu kira2..

dan syukurlah T mendapat nilai memuaskan di UANnya :) tp jgn salah, dia ga les lg sm saya smt 2 nya, paling cm sekitar 2 atau 3x kita ketemu. dia fokus bgt bljr di smt 2 itu dan jg terus berdoa.. alhamdulillah :)

nah balik lagi ke rumah bella.. dulu wkt saya ga tau rmhnya bella, saya dijemput dan dianter pulang sm keluarganya bella.. biasanya ada bella, eyang, om, dan supir..
ada  nih satu bagian yg membuat saya terharu.. pas saya ke rmh bela lg setelah sekian lama, trs om nya yg ngeliat saya lgsg ngmg

"mohon maaf lahir dan batin ya mba anti.."

aaaa.. seperti keluarga dekat saja.. pdhl biasanya om itu jarang ngmg.. eyang, bella, semuanya jg ky gitu..
mgkn saya lebay, yg jelas saya terharu bgt. titik. ahahaha

hm.. siapa lagi yaa?

pending lagi aaah~ biasanya kl ud dpn kompi, malah lupa apa yg mau ditulisin hahaha ttp semangat semuanyaa!